[ Azura stares at him in....horror? Grief? But then there's something that pops up in her head again, something she's been thinking about all the time she's been here.
"I choose my own fate." ]
It isn't who you're "supposed" to be. You can be anything you'd like to be.
[ She furrows her brows together and takes a deep breath, willing herself to not start crying again. ]
Maybe you were this person at some point in your life, before I met you. But that isn't who you are today. Unless you're telling me that all the time we've spent together, that accepting me as your daughter was all a cruel joke, then "who you are" is someone with a jovial heart and a quick wit and a knack for scheming, not--this.
I know what you're feeling. It's when...everything gets so bad, you start to think "it would be better if I felt nothing at all!" I would be lying if I said I didn't feel similarly, that I have not felt similarly for years and years and years. I used to feel like it would be better if I didn't exist at all, because that would be better than feeling the pain all day, every day.
[ your daughter has serious depression, isn't that fun ]
And what do you mean by "value"? You--you have value, I value you and so does Silver and so does Ingway, and I'm betting the people you knew before coming here value you just as much.
I know you're not human, but you're still a person, even if you don't want to think of yourself that way. And any person has feelings, including bad ones they wish they didn't have to deal with. If this is all because you don't want to feel grief...I'm begging you, please stop.
cw talk of suicide
"I choose my own fate." ]
It isn't who you're "supposed" to be. You can be anything you'd like to be.
[ She furrows her brows together and takes a deep breath, willing herself to not start crying again. ]
Maybe you were this person at some point in your life, before I met you. But that isn't who you are today. Unless you're telling me that all the time we've spent together, that accepting me as your daughter was all a cruel joke, then "who you are" is someone with a jovial heart and a quick wit and a knack for scheming, not--this.
I know what you're feeling. It's when...everything gets so bad, you start to think "it would be better if I felt nothing at all!" I would be lying if I said I didn't feel similarly, that I have not felt similarly for years and years and years. I used to feel like it would be better if I didn't exist at all, because that would be better than feeling the pain all day, every day.
[ your daughter has serious depression, isn't that fun ]
And what do you mean by "value"? You--you have value, I value you and so does Silver and so does Ingway, and I'm betting the people you knew before coming here value you just as much.
I know you're not human, but you're still a person, even if you don't want to think of yourself that way. And any person has feelings, including bad ones they wish they didn't have to deal with. If this is all because you don't want to feel grief...I'm begging you, please stop.